Thursday, July 30, 2015
The waves of the sea,
The snowflakes upon the mountains --
In these you will find my love for you,
Infinite and beyond height and depth.
Count the stars, the sea, and snow.
Number infinity -
Only then will you find and know
The end of my love for you -
Impossible and beyond time and existence.
Wednesday, July 29, 2015
Each hour to minutes,
Each minute to seconds,
Until we've reached mere moments --
The essence of time.
My every moment is filled
with the connection between our hearts.
And so it is that you have made
The essence of my time.
Monday, July 27, 2015
Saturday, July 25, 2015
"... anyone and anything at all, that's loved by you." - "Happiness Is" from You're A Good Man, Charlie Brown
I really think it's hard to not find happiness in any given day. There is always some bit of light that can peek through; it's a matter of not closing our eyes to it -- allowing it to reach our gaze, even when it feels like we're under dark skies. And the best part is passing that little bit of light we discover on to others, through a word, a gesture, or even just a smile. We can all be a bit of someone else's daily happiness. What a happy thought. :)
Bits of my happiness today:
Friday, July 24, 2015
Thursday, July 23, 2015
Wednesday, July 22, 2015
Tuesday, July 21, 2015
Enjoyed San Francisco city life
Gave a graduate recital from the heart
Got a paying music job
Moved back to Seattle
Learned to further appreciate good beer
Slowly learned to cook more things
Made a website and business cards
Gained more self-confidence in all areas
Found the love of my life.
24, let's see what you've got.
I fought a battle.
I'm letting go
of that little voice
who looks in the mirror with me and says,
"How could someone want you?"
A lot of days,
more so than ever before,
it's nowhere to be found.
It sneaks back around, though,
trying to break through my defenses,
preying on old wounds.
I am much more than
how I appear.
And yet, how I appear is also
a part of my "much more" --
and if I let that
question my much-ness,
my more becomes less.
So I fought to
because I will not be diminished
Monday, July 20, 2015
Saturday, July 18, 2015
So, my advising thought for the day: try something new and let yourself be surprised. :)
Friday, July 17, 2015
Good thing there's a dog in the house. :)
Thursday, July 16, 2015
Tuesday, July 14, 2015
Just a thought that crossed my mind today on one of my many commutes and really something worth considering.
Also... I missed driving when in SF. Definitely over that now.
Is it weird to say that part of me really misses MUNI? At least, the good parts, of which there are more than regular SF-ers might realize!... (I think.) :)
After reading a lengthy and apparently well-informed article about the imminent doom of my beloved Pacific Northwest home in the face of an impending ("one in three chance in the next ten years" stuck out at me) Cascadia fault zone earthquake, I was, understandably, somewhat perturbed. "GET OUT NOW!! The sooner you're moved away the better!" screamed part of my brain.
No place and no person is untouchable when it comes to life-altering events. (Not to make us all paranoid or anything -- really! They aren't all necessarily doom-and-gloom! Sometimes these events can be happy things too, like getting the right job to jump-start your career or meeting the love of your life!) Does that mean we should exist in a constant state of uncertainty? No. We can't.
We plan because we must assume that tomorrow is coming and that it will connect to things that happened today. We anticipate continuing. We want to survive and we have some sort of natural faith that we will. So, we plan.
I love to plan! Other than dentist appointments, it's usually exciting! Am I ignoring impending doom? Not really. We're all gonna die someday, guys. Articles like these are only scary because they wave our mortality and our ultimate lack of control over it in our faces. Some way or another, eventually our small lights go out.
However, I think that keeping that tucked away in the back of one's mind (and occasionally having it aired out as a media sensation) ultimately only gives more meaning to our plans, our current be-ing, and our anticipation of continued existence. We can't let it hold us back, for then what could we achieve to give meaning our brief roles in this grand scheme of things?
Let us allow our sense of mortality to help ground us, but not stall us; to not weigh us down, but give weight to our words, actions, and interactions; to help us value existence as all the more precious and make plans for tomorrow, next week, and next year that celebrate our humanity and help it move forward.
Monday, July 13, 2015
Sunday, July 12, 2015
Friday, July 10, 2015
(Sorry for the rhyming kick... but not really.)
"Why does my nose itch?"
"Why do I have the hiccups?"
"These are the big life questions we must consider."
Beyond general silliness:
I am just immeasurably grateful for the constancy that is present in these lasting relationships in my life ... where each person, as well as the relationship itself, has room to grow and change with time, but the heart of what makes the pairing special remains rooted in the true spark of where it began.
Thursday, July 9, 2015
Tuesday, July 7, 2015
Sunday, July 5, 2015
across my mind--
glinting in the
No one but
to finish the
Reflecting on the pain and anguish of a life lost far too soon as I prepared music for a memorial service early next week, it came to me that God's hand does play a part in such a sad happening. However, it is not the event itself.
Rather, God's hand - the Way, the Truth, and Light- is shown in the outpouring of love and community that occurs as fellow humans reach out to uphold those who are hurting. In my small way, the music for the service, I pray that I can contribute to this beautiful expression of God's love for the people who have lost and are grieving.
Friday, July 3, 2015
Thursday, July 2, 2015
It struck me tonight that this is a good metaphor for people. We are all bits of light making our way towards futures that, while perhaps laid out on a paved road, exist as pools of darkness, of unknown possibilities. Sometimes another bit of light comes along our path - it could be from any angle - and that person either shines their light on where we have been or where we are going, helping us along our way. And, as much as others help melt away the darkness of our lives, we are also able to melt away the darkness around theirs. In some cases, we can never know how much we light the way for someone in an hour of need.
This is why it is so important for us to believe in our own lights and keep them shining. We are all so powerful and full of potential to help share goodness and light in our world, no matter what size that light may be.
Let yourself shine - even the edges of light drive the darkness away.