Today

Today was a full day of singing and as much as I stressed about it, all of it was fun and so fulfilling.

Pre-audition selfie:

Mid-show selfie:

I'm doing this whole "singing for a living" thing. How cool is that?!

10/24 - Happiness Limbo

It's not unhappiness.  So it must be happiness?  Somehow it cannot be neither.  So, simply, I come to the thought that it is merely a dissatisfaction with the way things are.  Though, really, things are fine.  Good, even! Blessings!  But I'm not where I want to end up being.  I'm not doing what I want to end up doing.  I take now as it is, because it is so much better than whatever else I could have (or could not have) been doing, but that doesn't mean I have to stay here.

So I won't.  

Le Sigh

I am very tired.  But feeling oh so accomplished.  And a little bit giddy.

"If all we have come through could not break us, what's ahead can only make us stronger than ever, clearer than ever; I'm closer than ever to you."

Love this show and all of the growth I have found in it.  It's truly a perfect summation of the last two years.  I feel ready (though a little scared, of course) for that next door - next time is now.  :)

Why I Sing

My heart feels full to bursting and all I want to do is sing!
I want to break out into song right here on the muni train and for everyone to hear the same music and have the same feeling. Exuberance.
Light.
Joy.
I want to sing at full forte and fill hearts.

When I get to sit in the audience at professional shows, I almost always have moments of wanting to just cry from happiness. My heart soars and longs to sing. That is why I do this - so others can feel this happy too.

That is why I sing.

Note to Self

I do this because I love it and I'm stressed because I care.  It's all good.